Unoriginal

Once again, I'm posting a title last, but you wouldn't have known that if I hadn't mentioned it. Well, I'm mentioning it.

This weekend has been terrible. Friday started out pretty well, I guess. No work, a pep rally was scheduled and football was that night against Midland High. Unfortunately, we lost to the Bulldogs 52-49. In double overtime. Football players were crying, I was crying... it was just a bad night. But I was looking forward to Saturday--all day at WT? Yeah. Good day. WT played ACU that night. Once more, I experience another football loss, this time 52-35. I left before I could see anything else happen to the Buffs. But the band did well, as usual. Megan and I got to watch them rehearse before the game started, which was enjoyable. AND IT WASN'T RAINING!! I come home and tell my mom that I love WT and that I got to talk to two department heads (music and English) but my mom only said that I should "think about things because I'm no good at the things I'm passionate about." Killer to my self-esteem, yes? Sadly, I can't say I'm interested in anything else besides music and writing/reading because I'm not. My mom gave me the "you need to think of a career that will stable you financially and not teaching" speech. I just... UGH. I dunno. I've been iffy about what I want to do after college, and my mother isn't helping at all.

Off topic, but BOYS ARE ANNOYING. One minute this guy is flirting with me, telling me how attractive he thinks I am and the next he's got a girlfriend. WHAT?! I actually liked this guy? What for? Besides the fact that he's got great taste in music, he's really attractive, he's funny and sweet and all of this stuff... Whatever. I'm just going to forget about it as best I can. The sad thing is is that I work with him. Yeah...

I try to live my life normally at school or when I'm around people. I'm not dramatic, I'm not all "LOOK AT ME MY LIFE IS AWFUL." I'm just not like that at all. I try to keep to myself or write it out. Or listen to music, but my iPod is dead at the moment and really needs to be charged. But at any rate, I'm still me. Just the same senior girl looking for a way to get to college. Trying to find a suitable career path. Looking for the bright side, but always finding the dark. Writing her heart out to find the answers to her own life, but only finding more questions. Still the same Ashlie.

I feel like walking around the neighborhood for a while, but I might not get to. I'm hungry, I'm tired, I'm bored.... I guess I'm just lazy. :P But life goes on, right? Yes. You fail at life if you think it doesn't.

I'm going to put more songs on my iPod, charge it up, and go jump on the trampoline. I might add more to this later, if I feel it necessary. It's quite short, so I might do something to it Tuesday (since I work Monday...)

-Ashlie